Sometimes I wonder, my life is my personal stuff, why do I have to care so much about others' view, since they cant do for me anything, pointless to care so much about unconstructive stuff ....
Anyway, hopefully I can do my best everything then, learn not to be too mood driven. No matter how life is, I still have to carry on, I still have to finish my study, I have to go for better job and so on ... since I still have so many things to settle, why dont I get them done well first ... since I still have friends around, learn to appreciate the moments we have .... 
It's always been my sick to go for those I dont have and ignore those in hand. If so it is really no point for me to get everything since I dont know how to appreciate, nothing different from as if I get nothing. 
